Saturday, October 22, 2011

Sleeping all day, and staying up all night!

Alright so just an update for all of my friends and family! California Love the musical is doing great right now! All of us cast and crew are working super hard and are almost completely off book! Its actually pretty cool, but we are actually doing the "First Cast Recording" not next weekend but the one after! So if the musical actually goes anywhere everyone will be using US as what the music sounds like.

Anyway, life has bee pretty good for me! I have 4 classes which im kicking the butt of, and some awesome professors!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The Road goes ever on and on...

Down from the doorstep where it begun. Man i love JRR Tolkien. But it totally shows how i am trying to live life... I am never sure if my choices are correct. the only reason i can go through with each one is i know that it is what i should do in the long run. The road will go on. This is just the doorstep. I just hope that my actions dont negatively affect those around me... I never want that, and i know this is best for now. Maybe just best for me... The fact of the matter is I am just happy to know that in the end, it will work out for the best.
I know this is just me ranting, but it is for that reason that i created the blog anyway... I know that this cant make sense to any of you out there in the interwubs... I wish i could just say how much people mean to me and my choices aren't because i dont care... i DO care. SO much. i just cant care anymore... It will hurt both of us so much...

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Well...

I havent written here in forever, because the past 10 months have been odd... I am jobless, living with my parents... Yet i haven't been this happy in my life. I have had so many times where i have had happy moments... But never so many happy days, where i sleep with a smile on my face... I know most of the readers will know this, but i was raised in the church. Did what i was supposed to, because i had to. I knew the church was true because it was rational. it made sense. Not very scientific i know. i should have come up with a hypothesis, tested, came up with data and made a theory. After that prove my theory, and come up to my conclusion on my own... I saw the problem that i had and decided to actually test this out... I know without a doubt the power of God. He has given me family who loves me, who pushes me, and urges me to be better. He gave me friends who love me, and make me want to be better, who show me a better way, and show their love for me. I know i have made mistakes but because Christ died for me so i can be redeemed.

This past weekend was General conference. I have listened my whole life... This was the first year where i knew i felt the spirit the whole time... i want to get a journal for the first time in my life so i can write all my thoughts and feelings down about it! Thursday i am returning to the temple... First time in two years. i am impressed that i am able to do this... I know i will keep my recommend from here on out though. I have never been so sure in my life.

I have been living in Apple Valley for almost 8 months now. A while ago i met some friends that have truly changed my life. I was not the best guy around, but because of these great people i have seen what is means to know. without a doubt. i know because they urged me, with help from the spirit of course, to see what i could do by looking for myself. They knew without a doubt. i wanted to see if i could. I will always be struggling to be like them, but i know i will always be trying to be better. I wish i could profess how much i love all of them, and how happy they have made me. Everyday i wake up with a smile because of them.